Pretend you don’t read this as it revolves around the world.  I was here i farted to trumpet my presence.  I loved with all my broken and reformed.  I lost the best parts of me here…to some of your that doesn’t me articles of clothing however naked my workds were.  I shared what I oped mattered.  yes that means I may have misguesseed within my occasional panderings for attentions …. or maybe not.  Ilived here in that some days i spent more time here awake than I did anywhere else.  I learned my vision that it isn’t but what I offered and also what whas selections taken.  sometime I was the best you ever read…well at least once.  most of the time I was wasting tthe efforts if fame is all our words are worth.  One thing if for sure, I liked being here by choice….for it was an effort.

tomorrow comes as i admit I’ve little faith in the end game salvation thanks to what I’ve learned here.  faith that somehow my words stirred you to en mass act.  I am pleased nearly seven hundred stepped to the plate which to me meanfifteen hundred were active here and we launched one helll of a save xanga campaingn.  maybe there is 3000  who knows but we sure put up some numbers just sadly it seems now not the one’s that people wanted to see..  so tomorrow my love affairs for nearly a decade of my life are consigned to history. so am i.  so is every ho0pe list here in these hall.  I am glad to have graffitied them.  and thus to have lived.  

tomorrow ends forever what was.  but just as every ending begs a new beginning I hope you wish with me in your clicks to find your friends alive and still well elsewhere..   the story us.  it is not over but down different roads.  will josh reconcile his love for woman of a certain state.  she still touches my heart.  will josh go international ?we’ll see butthats currently more than i’ve got in whole not just some little part.  will josh remain employed.  I have to fight for respect and i can not conciweve of any way I’ve merit for.  

one thing for sure my fancy tv is ready for pick up to moorrow at the nearest to me mal.  my sister is moving forward in her life to a mountain town leaving me a room of my very own.  Ican not easily out do our resident chef so haha I got mine and it’s someone elses cooking bahahahahaha the only one losing in a war of cooks is the fool who worries about their figure.  I have little current hope of getting in sideways to cook at my current home of employment but I’ve still 3 to cook for and then a room to clean.

I may not survive 30 or more years but i’ve finally bgun to take my medication as i’m employed I have a shot I have the means to get heart broken again.  I wont joke with your but i find it odd two years ago she left to the day continueing which was a surprise to chase her aims and it seems appropo that xanga dies upon that day i was charmed here by a girl and leave here bereft of the woman I didn’t get.  oh shush of course I still love her her and her her too. but lol it seems it is time to move along.hopefully not to him lol all girls suck but i’m still not guy.  i have wine anyways  may it turn out

even if it doesn’t I will and you should too 

pretend.

I had a blue looked more like paint tape than bandage on my finger as i LOST at shuffleboard.  the bus route is cool now as I don’t have to walk to where I was heading as it’s a stop now  I got a few free drinks and the shuffleboard was free…  considering the gals knew the one i was with by name….I think the voted yes on me.  yes, I went out on a nice date. for a few drinks at the bar and shuffleboard.  lunch. snacks.  I had an enjoyable time even not just losing but being the sacrifice…poor finger, get a band aid you’re bleeding all over the table.  6/6 tie break and also to tie the matches and I blow my last puck uggg.  after walking back to the bus I mention it’s no big thing to hop this or that bus so she can walk with me to the cool park pond in her area and after such Chinese it is   it was nice to split everything too.  the one bus flat out had a different number it used to be the 7 and now it is the 12, the one bus as I said used to scoot over to the school and now doesn’t make that loop…I got a stolen hug…  it was nice and I don’t regret the extended ending as chinese was worth the loss of the sugar sticks .  well I’m about to be late to work sharing all this so toodles

so i wasn’t rubbery yesterday …. I was acidic angry glue.  This did nothing for my moral so thanks to some fortune today is another day.  here’s the silver from yesterday’s cloud linings.

my soup did not suck,  it WAS lightly seasoned and thus adapted well to my oops no sour cream today by taking on pepper and vindaloo with a dust of minced onion.

I woke and scrubbed some more on the curly cue filigres  I have gotten every splat scraped/scratched and most of paint black off of purplish yellowed too plastic.  I tried thesteel wool on the metal and…..put more stripper on them thar poles…. there seriously is a joke in that.

speaking of bad jokes.  yes yesterday I got mad at another project undone snipe… this moning the bad joke was… I love what you did with the bench… it dawned slowly that a plastic chair was in it’s place…LOL.

I may get to go to nyc to meet my irish friend over on family stuff which is way closer than ireland where he currently resides  of course it’s expensive and thus the “may” part.  if so middle august on my days off  If i get to go I look forward to perhaps a round of burrito makings  which will become chicken enchiladas  I look forward to having time to eat somewhere else than macdonalds perhaps the carnegie deli. and with luck the big central library  

the update on the wine after some time with the bentonite clay slurry is that it wasn’t nearly enough  I have to try for a double batch in the small bottle and 10 times as much in the big jg.  I then after that time must rack off / filter the clay out and  get some pink pepperinto a sachet for the dandylion one and thus get in the final throws of ready to swill   then the passover wine might be ready for not passover but swill swill swilling.

the bench will require lotsa of sandpaper asway that was corroded!  but mainly so i can have a nicer coat of paint.  I sure do hope I can say I’m painting the metal friday and have it together minus the parts no one can find lol which can happen as I’ve someplatic bushings to replace perhaps and harder some rubber stoppers if any of those when missing.  I know I lost a nut or two.

I have two check to look forward to for opening friday which means pay down that shopping mission! lol finish out the other itemry in cue and?

last week’s day was rescheduled from the weekend before and again to friday  sometime..  so 

I have it fairly good  I have a boss that largely leaves me to my days and thus see little of her…freedom and trust  I made good soup afterall mmm thick stew borscht!  I will by gum! have a bench at only triple the cost of new  oops I feel better having tools even if I don’t NEED to to this or that project only that something get….start getting done around here trashed or treasured up.  I did get screaming mad at/around mom so pardon me a phone call

boeing offers us 7 07 727 747 767 airliners  mazeda motors offers us cars like the 626 or 323.  Porsch automobiles offers us 914 924 911 and 944   but xanga hath offered us through us the 716 seven one six.  the day after it was supposed to no longer be because we are trying for it still.  yay.  

now?  to do something really blog worthy and shush up so i can outside…yes, with pants, to disassemble strip…as in the paint off of something not me hopefully and paint my mom’s old glider bench.  I have gloves, stripper—paint stripper scrubbies ziplocks for hardware and bags aplenty as drop clothes and also emergency rain bags along with a paint brush bucket  spray and flat exterior paints white and enamel gloss cranberry to match a redish dark ffront dooor and a white house.  if i get after this now, i may be done by nightfall.

Post Xanga-versial musings have begun in this here challenge to tell us all about your expectations once again after it all goes and gets different.

http://kween-of-the-queens.xanga.com/

and

http://m-elmer-48.xanga.com/774300284/item/

I got this challenge via this avenue above…the two links as in the second I read and it came sorta from the first.

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What are my plans post once july 15th now end of July or the end of Xanga as I knew it?  

My plans are simply to continue as is.  if Xanga leaves okay let’s hope it returns as i’ve put forth a pledge for it to…

Do i have another site set up?….as in to blog/keep in touch?….  

Yes, I’m on fb, wordpress google plus snail mail for any and all graft etc.

Do I plan to continue to blog?

yes, I suppose until it occurs to me I shouldn’t.

Will I try to continue with X₂.O?  

I’m set to pay to try my luck- I’m not keen on entirely blowing my means…so yes. but I practically already do.

I’m alerting the authorities I’m hugely sheeople about doing the contest/whatchamathingy.

i went shopping part one and am about to order my television which is part two.

I have lotsa dross lol but I got:

mr coffee’s red and black keurig style coffe maker, an optional make your own k-cup adapter and additional decaffeinated columbian coffee servings.

a 8 quart basic pressure cooker about 35 buck on sale unlike the coffee system.

I got hair products and a tooth brush along with a haircut and nose and hair trimmers with the smallie beard and hair if one is good touch up machine.  tthe why is I take it as a foul sign I had to sign a paper about dress code policy again…doesn’t matter if the boss signed her’s with me it feals like I shit my pants and didn’t shower for a month and tried to smile it away…. yuck I know.  hence … product.

batteries and construction waste bags round out the big stufff for me

marijuana pipe cleaners and remember I live with smokers but I like the tobacco.

various niceties for the barber in lieu of actual payment.

now the television if mr spatulah is reading, I found not quite the fries’ special but twice the size model refurbished for 280 for a low grade 46″ lcd television  15 was it ago it had to be because I was looking/shopping at a montgomery wards store showed me I have difficulties seeing at anything less than 48 inches or smaller but given my rich ness this is within MY budget and close enough to my needs and i can maybe be 4 feet away from the screen witch isn’t much but perhaps just enough NOT to block other’s viewing.  it’s on the sears search for tv’s and is a price good through fe3vruary next year online purchase delivered to a store near you with a MONTH long delay….further details are subject to your review but it is an rca 1080i as in interlaced/ sixty hearts refresh rate 46″ inch class flast panel lcd type machine. not quite a pbargain but not necessarily the worst deal either .

for those who aren’t aware, i work as an activities assistant for a retirement home.  I have made it 30 days emp.loyed and thus you may send out thank type thoughts to my boss for having that immeassurable patience yet still…in fact please continue to do that please.  is every day a home3 run, no.  is every day a hellish prison of looking at the clock? no.  so coupled with still being alolowed there this is a mini journal about changing point of vies.

I am due in friday and called off for a switch of days  less than 30 minutes bbefore I am picked up by my bus there.  who hasn’t thought that phone ringing and it being “work” that oh god I’m being told not to come in ….bode evil bode evil? lol.  it was as it was switched days.    I did laundry and that was good considering i had little to none otherwise.  I bought my wine fining supplies too.

next work day the boss had said we had our lock changed and the new one is rekeyed to that same previous key.  okay. I arrive on my next day and boss had meant it- she change the changed but still worked for me lock to her own and i didn’t get the new key as was to be left.  so my day was crunchies already because while i should and can call my boss “anytime”  who wants to see work on the phone on their day off?  well not only that this time I didn’t do it and am hel up and worse chewed a tad  sorting it out and… I did of course.  but how many thought I might go home and expect to quit or be fired here we go again.?.

sunday I have to leave early because i have to have an afternoon activity and I have no access to them even if miricals happen I am planning for them not to  so i get a game and the key turns up you know the right one and so does boss hi grandchildren!  but  thankfully it isn’t to be chewed on and yes my yesterday went fine  remember you’re starman has made eve3rything from human checkers boards and origami to spinning calabash whistles  in the arts and crafts… I can if i breath do this stuff even when it gets crunchies as in challenging.

fallout, the game i selected was a game of cards on dice  a complete deck with two jokers or 54 cards on 9 dice.  and lol not a single gal liked poker or even knew how to play and not one understood  the dice version of crazy 8′s and none remembered how to play blackjack 21….and all hated the activity…and to me while I can – I figure it’s a complete demerit if i have to turn on a television.

monday came and I didn’t know whether theMY schedule hours would allow me to run the evening activity listed so called late missed the boss twice and had the room rockin lol but had to leave it off early as I was supposed to get a message to cease and desist…I did not.  one even asked me and you know what?  I felt a little good for saying i don’t know and I’m not likely to ask why i’m directed off early.  remember all words have a gossip effect and the story DOES grow taller and darker down the line but rarely makes me look handsome.  

now did i do a c grade job- I sure hope so.  both in not forgetting to note when I’m bereft of simple things but also agreeable to those who pay me-  okay I may have got closer to d range in being pleasant but i did do a b grade job recovering.  - i’mpast my 30 days anniversary and still employed.and that is a typical type week both major ups and oppses too

but a n asside I missed every single bus monday morning and my brother in passing and thus had to catch a cabinto work.  It’s nice to know I managed to be not ontime but early wow what a luxery those who drive have even if it feels more like an odious necessity.

pardon the allusion to the Jehovah’s Witness’ Monthly magazine of the same name, but such just is unintentional.

I have took the plunge to pay up in hopes of moving the community.  I have been here long enough to do what i can plus add to the hopes we help our fellows if we can.

G49 gee four niner, four nine under the gee.  Thee most UNLUCKY number for me of all bingo.  why oh why is she pretty and fourty nine and friendly?  so far 3 times unlucky any 49 has panned out golden.  But Xanga has the circumstance of not being a woman so maybe this 1849  reference of leaving my golden nugget of support when I’m not wealthy either helps you too to consider your own plunge.

now for pants  I have to get ready for independance day early at work.

breakfast was

coffee of the cinnamon spice and an orange sweet roll from the duffyroll cafe – who doesn’t like how I roll?

note this is a poached imaged of the company and not necessarily representative of the appearance of my location….and in fact it is NOT my location.

I woke up jazzed I still had five bucks for emergency smoke smokes.  i obtained those and a ooey gooey chocolate iced.  I arrived home and enjoyed the last evening’s party beer.  I had my 3rd smoke and dude who bought the beer pitch a frown about not asking.  nevermind if I’m thee most evil sinner ever he’s wright i probably am as he’s notions of sharring that do not fit my current home.   I look up fridge costs as it’s time to have four peoples non shared refrigerated and frozen space and I found a fridge and on a lark applied for the credit to buy it… I was approved!  fairly high limit too and of course high rate too but there is deferments and specials.  thus today i am shopping.

I called the optical place within systems and asked directly if they could handle my special needs and was jazzed ms. Anna said yes! but she called back saying she lied.  boo.  I loooked up leather couches as you put a friskey dog on anything else and see if it lasts?  um no.  I have that option set still.  I looked televisions and can get a fairly big as in 55 inch class machine for a reasonable to do and was advized about not buying plasma systems as they needc to be recharged after x period of time and such time is not part of the refurbishment clauses. boo because I’m blind as all get out and need to see a bigger screen as that determines how far I’m in the room ….  I looked up coffee makers from single serve travel mug style ones to single serve keurig style ones to espresso machines  etc and i like the mr coffee with additional purchase keurig adapter for what i still have left.  I can afford a saws all reciprocating saw which technically i can borrow for domosion but never is it handy so i make consider one of those.  please remember a chain saw is better but i can not physically safely operate one.  Ican also conside3r  both a pressure cooker and a fancy ladder system.  again same problems I cook  steamable food 3 times a month and I need a ladder maybe one time a month but while I have time andI also have access to borrows i never seem to have either when i need them.  thus to wind this one up neatly enough, I have access to these products and or tools easily but I don’t have any of them when i need them or want them..  

so here I sit with a pile of chances to buy the world I don’t thuroughly need as i can borrow it but it isn’t convenient.  I can’t get what I actually need which is new glasses as the lady lied or was in error about her services.the only security measure of this lark I employed was a store only not visa/ mastercard type card so I’m limited yet have proof in cameras who bought what….or a chance to prove i can fight charges.  I want everything as I’m that shopping way  and lol pleased they agree I can repay it.

so, the sleep on it clause in in force..  I can’t get nada until I have this slept on..  I made what was a poor query of a credit approved decision.  have you ever done the same?