April 10, 2013

• unappologetic drippy religiousness

  I gots to be useful

  thanks be to god for that yay.

  I sure hope I helped.

   

  I know this sounds dumb but such is my lot to worry over feeling useful at all in this life.  I haven’t a steady job.  I have a pile of real thorney health issues.  I have a cup of tea brewing on the stove.  yeah just like that. what more can i do but the best I know how and try my best to ease just one iota of other’s pains?  what ore?  of course ** didn’t do it god, did such is my lil humble point or dillusions of munchkins on the moon if you belive differently than i do and such is your reward and hopefully your thoughts searve you well too.

   

  I was lucky the furnace decided upon MY request to begin running again that house was at 52F degrees chilly!  yes, scary as this is i turned the fucker off at the brain/thermostat and then back on after hours of a pause and it works.  that is a very fearful thing mucking with the main bits of the house. quite expensive if I fuck it up and that means if it chooses not to work and i touched it last.

   

  I hope my friend has an easier time of  her challenges after hearing I had mine longer and they’re just one more thing to me.  that doesn’t mean lol it is any less scarey a situation not working right wuote unquote. nor is it MY fault in my opinion.. I just care and i hope that helps.

   

  many have helped with naughty views of that to make me drool no not naughty as in untowards… most of my pals  are married elsewhere!  but within decency they care to make me par t of their lives and lol bedevil me still.   oo do I have nice pals  oo lala..

   

  will this titilation result in a date?  will I get lucky and like a lifelong disease?   I would not mind being healthier if I knew better how to manage tahat blessing.  but in truth I’m but pleased this moment to be an aid to those who need someone to hold their hand and say you can do this..why? because i’m still here and I’ve had to my own self that’s my proof it’s possible.  sometimes that’s the best gift of life I have to know you can because I have already.

   

  thank you god.  i am sorry i’m a lousy servant but thank you for just a little blessing to help another.
  

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  oh, by the way the furnace really is broken… it appears to have a flame sensor and or a busted thermostat issue.  it will turn on but cuts out almost immediately…as in fan, flame big fan shut off behaviour. which neither worry me much as both parts can be replace in the 300 range of a service call and such isn’t the biggest hell there is and neither is user servacable so I do not have. to do it so   there will be a landlord call happening around this house boo to that but yay to it maybe. maybe being a simpler fix with parts easily available and in town. .  boo that i touched it last and now it doesn’t work but yay such isn’t behavior-wise something I could have broke

   

  and lucky me gets to be in the other part of the house with a working furnace all cozy and warmmmm ooo lala till bitchy sis gets home to yell at me for enjoying myself in her domain lol

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