• port is both left of a ship and a portuguese wine. 
• listing is an act of a ship damaged! or a fine array of bulllllllet points!!!!
• I’ve 5 bags of vegetation bagged
• I’ve 5 piles to bag
• I’ve a start through 100 elm shoots to prune’
• I’ve 7 cigarettes in and thus acheived the goal of halving my tobacco intake stably over 4 days when six weeks hits or some ridiculous length of time when this is a establish hait, there will be time to make this 0.  I acheive so much better in acheivable goals.
• I took ten ears to learn better how to hand money, I’ve paid off my bank loan already and look forward to less rent due than when I started out on my own – even the tries 16 years ago.
• I started reading that book :_ thank you for it… it is interesting and about my first of this year

 

 

I have tabs… no, not a guitarist’s tab lature or how to to pick through a tune… I have tabs of internet browser.  lukewarm links if you follow @godfatherofgreenbay  I have the information on how a nineteen seat configured metroliner 23 hasa “good burn” and thus a range of 1200 miles – a smaller aeroplane.  I have not found the magic of how somehow x percentage is employed by the government…I mean how you make 18 million fulltime employees of federal state county and city governments turn into 50% of 330 plus million people and thus how government is too big and choking/starving/robbing the working people…nope I do not have that tab.  I have up the online etymology of the word tangent… I think the tab qualifies as one. I have up some capitol steps so I can laugh at political thoughts as I never seem to quite get them to work for me.  I don’t have a cigarette to my lips…I haven’t smoked one of those in 2 days.  I still haven’t found what I’m looking for…holds up finger…nah, one of you will get it.

whoomp. here it is.

 

I made about the simplest roast beef this evening:

blade roast

carrots

red bell peppers

water

cornstarch

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a slow cooker insert, preheated 400F oven, a roast and nada else for a while. 4 hours from frozen roast just thawed enough to peel the paper pad off it, after 3 hours in with the hot water…and the veg carrots then peppers. water half way up.  despite the hot water the liner cracked anyways  not through but still bugger.

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I paid the last of my monthly bills  – I’m happy to be abundant that way. 

 

I have pipe and enough of the stuff for a day or two if I want it.  I expect to quit.

 

I had me a solo festival last evening as I felt like it

I cleaned up in the yard today…ah pennence…oo that lysinopril sure makes bending over a surprise grey standing back up.

 

I’m out to a british car show tomorrow. there may or may not be pictures

 

 

I have my drawin pad so I may be doing up representations of me ideas.

 

 

 

I’m holding in the ones which is nice (not yet WITH food but after digestion). (sugar control)

 

 

if you don’t consume tobacco, good for you.  If you do and you, like me, think it’s time to tone that down yet the previous will to do so isn’t working?

hair brained schemes commence!

I’m told I can’t ta  with a ke whatever that chantex stuff as it’s not a great idea with my kidney issues.

I get ill with the correct for me patch of step first the huge patch..yes after under but close to a pack a day for years 18 I still get ill with 4mg/24hour patches, the correct first step in the patch system.  I also have no desire NOT to smoke…shhh, I know that’s a doublenegative and it is purposeful.

cold turkey can last anywhere from 1 – 69 hours

smoking lesser nicotine containing cigarrettes is a mixed bag of results:

  american spirits sure do burn slower than say a marlboro/camel/winston BUT the 1.1mg/nicotine  of a marlboro/camel/winston red to an american spirit yellow pack’s 0.7mg nicotine just isn’t enough and fuck the ultralights- I turn those lil cotton butt-ends black

gum is on par with the big patch, it makes me ill and as added disencentive – it taste like vile.

so,  pipe smoking.  going grandpa *or in this case, great grandpa.

http://www.starscientific.com/404/Fagerstrom%20The%20nicotine%20Market.pdf  shows me in a quick scan that pip smoking is roughly 1g product to 1.5mg’s absorbed nicotine. or a 1.75 oz… yes the purposeful numbers confusion is shown oz/mg…. because 28.3g is the av. ounce or 16oz./lb scale by which tobacco is sold so ~35 grams is my lil half now gone pipe tobacco pouch and I’ve saved myself imprecisely just over 2 packs of cigarettes and thus simple guestimation shows I’ve INCREASED nicotine intake…oo backsliding.  but I have managed in one stroke to save myself 5 dollars already.  yes, a whole five dollars … in reality the pipe cost something too so I really saved nothing as is what truly happens or this wouldn’t be a hair-brained scheme!  

if you’d like information on nicotine content you’ll have to hunt for it- I already have in years past and there is variation in formulation as is required by patent / copyright law and to goose up sales… it’s unlikely to alter terrifically much.  next, if you’d like information on how marlboro cigarettes have been known to be processed with ammonia, camel’s squareol *a portion of the clary sage essential oil. – winston’s supposedly no additional additives yet! all tobacco is 25% post consumer content or thereabouts or all the old tobacco is put back in a giant tank and made to smell like tobacco again driet out and shaved back into tobacco…i.e. the tank may not have “any additional additives other than tobacco…” but what came before is already there  you can hunt this and more information like how it is n where near impossible to obtain flavored cigarettes like clove or those fancy orange mint camels…but it is currently illegal in the usa to sell them so you must import them..you can dig this crap up for yourself- it’s five pages ofknown additives that have or once did flavor tobacco and I’d bet you money  only the cherry  bubble gum orange and known to us flavors are banned but not all the list.  not by a long shot.  certainly not ammonia to break down the blood brain barrier making nicotine far more addictive  oh lord  no, but cherry smokes, the kid’s ‘ll smoke those gotta ban them  ;)

 

now, thank you for allowing me to write this allll out and see that I’m a goof when i thought i was brilliant.  and perhaps I’ll take to a pip – it ultimately is classy as vices go, and it in the short term reduces the nicotine intake as i can go longer without a puff than before while this isn’t surprising really as I can go  a day without cigarettes fairly easily already even though i don’t want to admit that  aloud.

 

smokeless cigarettes:

the most powerful “carton’ of cigarettes is the 35 mg vial of smokeless whatever it is.  a carton is 200 cigarettes which I’ve point out are 1.1mg each or 220mg in a carton, nicotine.  who the fuck lied to YOU?  smokeless e0cigarette advertising!  ;)  if you find it difficult to get that nicotine “fix” perhaps this lil bit of math will show you why.  1/7th?   I will point out that these things will ease the craving SOME and you will in time ease your intake.  and? the upshot is the things are wicked cool – you can smoke them anywhere as they legally aren’t tobacco, but please don’t be a fucktard about proving the point…you aren’t likely to bring a legal team in your pocket and likely also don’t have the best credability to win at being anything but a jackass.    

 

oh, and while i can’t do a lot of algebra, I am capable of basic math and still am able to perform such.  while the above isn’t meant to win me a prize in arithamatic, I do expect it to prove the point that there should be a lil mathmatic basis for decisions…

stash chocolate hazelnut tea with turkey hill black cherry icecream…. this is your chai. and for those of us diabetics a delicious beverage where in you actually can make a whopper lot of the chai as we’re allowed the 1/2 cup serving that’s 12 oz or more of frothy goodness!

http://www.turkeyhill.com/products/premium-ice-cream-flavors.aspx?pID=126

we all know tea has 0-5 calories at best but icecream is not free .

 

18 carbs  which is half a soda even I can choose an 8 oz soda with a meal and not often on meds  i didn’t say it was a good choice but i can choose it  okay that’s 18 carbs, 130 calories, 6 grams wa it fat so reasonable, even 2 grams protein. wow that means it’s 5- of these to make protein lol not a good idea but that’s why food is a choice.

 

and this is better as treats go, the chai with ice cream for your health

There is nothing like eating crab and then disovering youre crabby

I just love how the best item of this week is my new chai and it is made with turkey….creek ice cream of the black cherry and choc/hazelnut stash tea. 

I have diabetes yes, so I literally should ask myself more if it’s worth it…now now I’m not talking about breathing in and out i mean whether i should enjoy as much food as i should watch it more.

 

I was told astrologically speaking and I’m thinking of you alison, that I’d be getting out more on the sixth til nearer my birthday on a whirlwind social spree, I got out to my porch and the nicest dog of the house bit me and i promptly enjoyed ice bags and robe time til my dog sitting job begun tonight.  talk about looking compitant and social.

 

I know sushi never seems like much food and i left well! fed both in enjoying my dinner’s bulk and quality.  i came home had one single pretzle handful become half the bag and slept the next 14 hours ish away.    I started out eating right  I ended up eating right…any one spot the taste for carbs/b vitamins of bread

 

I want something right now it’s in truth about a 2 liter of sugar pop…I’ll refrain I shouldn’t try to process that which is oh 38-45 units of insulin of the fast acting kind initially and 12 more lat least over time.    for the record i’m told i really shouldn’t go over 10 in a day if i eat even that unhealthily   lol  but mmmmm a 2 liter of barq’s root beer.  one of the few sodas not worth adulterating except with chocolate ice cream

 

almost time to switch out the dryer to the next load’s worth and be late on doing my cloths expected done at ten not 112.  wouldn’t it just figure i’ve fricken lived here and forget the dryer is functional but not fancy new. lol  

 

m e t h y l a n t h r a n i l a t e  methylanthranilate meth ill annnn thran ill ate  rolls right off the tongue – it’s a chemical composition within jasmine tea scent/taste and also that of purple grapes and the artificial taste of said type things… and birdy repellant on golf corses…. and yet I can’t remember my damned banking login information

I begin dog sitting tomorrow.  I on longer jobs get to dine out front and back end of the bow wowwhat you thinkin’ about?s  tonight is just one of those longer runs of weekday work but it’s becoming less of a “job” the dogs are getting into far less issues…but still

 

food.

 

I got to try a 4-5 years going now business called ooka.  I got a spider roll and a yellowfin / scallions roll and shared a japanese chicken dumpling gyuza gyoza i can’t quite remember but a pot sticker and it was good. great and are you kidding me this is ungodly good.

 

http://www.denverooka.com/menu.html

http://www.npr.org/blogs/thesalt/

http://www.npr.org/blogs/thesalt/2012/09/07/160681396/when-it-comes-to-buying-organic-science-and-beliefs-dont-always-mesh

 

Many of you know I don’t like how buying organic makes me feel I don’t take good care of myself because I cant afford  double price foods.  it is refreshing to see that SO FAR there is still no significant

reason of health benefits to do so. 

I don’t know about you, but food to me is does it look good and taste good- best that budget can allow. 

 

yes there is economic reasons to double the price of food- it’s more dough to producers.  but to see what I suspected that iso far is yet to be determined to be of benefit is rather telling.  if I buy gucci eat organic preferably something without a face, only associate with people  going someplace – I will be far more tasteful and such is?  good for economy but not necessarily you.

 

this does NOT mean there isn’t some modern day “the-jungle” type behaor worse in your food…sureviours wherein we consume what would be horrifying to us if we only knew products.  yes, you could be buying literal mexican piss water meant for us gringos abroad….I highly doubt it as e. coli will get you shut DOWN…every drop of product recalled, fined and sued…. but could it happen that racist workers would spit or worse into your food/beverage?  could wisteria from a single farm ruin a farmer because  practices weren’t followed?…yes and people did indeed DIE. would nearl swear of meat consumption after seeing a slaughterhouse?…many have.  would something as simple as not washing one’s hands cause you to perish from unbelievable painful and fatal diarrhea?  food can kill you.  but organic doesn’t mean life. 

or, just because my shirt is rumpled doesn’t mean I love you less and wish you a bad drink or meal-   this phobia of presentation is key in why people starve to death and die and yet we throw away half our food uneaten.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2115405/Up-50-worlds-food-thrown-away.html

I remember an arizona study finding similarly once upon a time.

 

we have all these “answers” to life which are important.  but are personal choices…and damned hooty snobbish one..and yet there is a perception that those so choosing this way are successful..enough are to make you free to choose for youself.  however if i jack lelane anything other than something disgusting, I’ll likely kill myself off early and also have failed to fully enjoy my foods.  jack lelane juicing however might work for every single person other than me reading this blog!

 

hus I have said what I wish to- you can disagree and even be right for yourself doing so- but so far there is little scientific evidence that your choices are anthing but that…choices. 
it is interesting how high the costs are for these choices.  this doesn’t make me want to scurry to a food bank with love and or spite….just so you know.  I sure do hope I live long enough to show I wasn’t a complete rebel of logiclessness.

I was bit by a dog. it’s been a day plus the 8 hours of what I did to make the day later tollerable…ice it aftera triple rinse.

I cant conscience another round of expensive importation as I’m about $0 towards it BUT which/? carling’s black label of chicago/pabst or try for emu export draft.? either way red can.  or fuck it and buy another round of ale8one soda on the expensive??

I’m wearing a robe and smoking a pipeyes entertaining guests with a pip and a robe.  can some say stop vibing the silk degrees it was cool 35 years ago, do some laundry and yeah?

I’mthuroughly broke as I bought my meds paid my loan off early and have 100 each from my brother courtesy the first tenant moving in, and some maybe work in the yard whilst dogsitting starting sunday.  I also have 3 weeks of food too.  do not think I’m not covered,   the issue is paid after not before…. timing.

I have a sweet soul to chatter with and dream after which is more than many have and I am grateful but… nah, no but. fuck that bitch.

you heard me

 

I love you

 

 

lol

 

yes I can type as I usually can about as bad as someone who should admid I should learn how to type.  but yes I did as I should and the ice meanesth I have the abily to two hand this blog. 

 

I’m half in the bag courtesy of wine for breakfast and rum for lunch.  there was a point of desperation where I made some butter cooked almonds fore to place a can of greeneth beans within this..  if I said fml…fuck my life, most would understand save the pointingout that I drink too much. 

I don’t think my life is fucked.

I probably do drink too much…considering I should touch it at all. and should quit smoking period.  why? because nicotine is a vasco dialator as is caffeine and I flow tooo much sugar through my vins and thus why add to my destruction?  such is common medical advice…they never tell you that the powders that so far work a lil but not perfectly take away this joy of booze and smokes.  grow up and live!  not a sould wouldn’t whine or wine that such is like asking one to admit life is over.

 

I haven’t a love affair save on internet, non-xistant save that I believe, I can’t maintain sugar- it is depressing as I have to give up living and yet I so far can not like a child.  I’m convinced I’m 25 years behind in living because I haven’t a relationship to show…someone to say guess who I’m going home with wink wink.  I am whining!!!

 

what kind of sad sap snake shit is this?

 

well

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you aren’t hugh hephner and neither am I but a pipe by moonlight robed for easy access delight is me dressed for tonight.  so what if I look a anachronism!

okay, cool it on the vices so living allows me more nicenesses but all is a choice- is there a tobacco to hell with it?  you know Tee Tee, like A.A.?

there is and yet I will go see about poaching some beer laden joys or my already made coffee fore to rum.  I will   continue to breath.

what is all this whining??

in  tegrity

yes,  bird’s

legs  FLYING

 

 

 

 

Who, what, where, when, how and why.

Show me don’t blow me; Describe.

more dialogue, less blocking!

action, the entertainment

let the story tell itself.

economy. use only gold

take the damn you out of it.

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that is a nicey nice bit of advice that is about how to write well…. it turns out to shape up nicely into a challis of thought…or a concrete poem shaped like a cup.  amazing how a cup of  heady words/thoughts  go together unlike the ass in chair of actually writing the writing.   hee  hee ;D  everyone with the cup and nt even me in a chair…I’m powerlounging on my bed.  disrespecting the advice because it’s what is different that stands out and thus garners attention.  but I’m ruining it philosophizings so.

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   towering is something cliff walls do.  look at it saying nothing but hinting it’s  as powerful as sky.  Look at it.  It stands there  all smug and arrogant.  I wonder what surpises it hide.  it’s granite and feldspar but that’s just the whispers of someone else’s opinionated bullshit.  I’t almost golden grey.  it’s many stories tall dwarfing 3  storie buildings that  just a humble bit of  ground enough to make this cliff look tall.  the word you might use is nestled.  that realestate eye forever suckers someone else to see it in cash buying  it too.if you tried to conceive of volume this cliff as part of more rock would hide a thousand homes…it’s that huge.  bullies appear that big.  bullies have a brain about as solid and unyeilding to thought.  And thats just the mood I’m in.  I am here to whip this rock. to make flopped circumstances flip. to look up to the  pinnaccles shown …oh no, I’m going to look down towering over the towers.  either I need a few drinks to think I’m flying or I better start getting after  that …oops did I say education was bullshit?  naughty me … I meant that there is this tendency of dismissal within our words of others that so often interferes with the joy that is learning….yeah I need to kiss some book ass and learn how to fly.

Flying from the ground without alcohol’s assistance is quite a trick.  It involves   a whole lot of not believing….but the strongest beliefs of all.  yes yes, you showed of to pretz;e your noodle with circular logic.  this is bound  to turn your head on it’s ear…be that putting you to sleep or felling you like the intellectual giant goliath with just sissy sling and stone.  my thoughts will make away with reasoning and sense.  they “fly” my thoughts.   but being of the sky is not acheived as easily as the birds so I’m going to have to learn  and the first step is feeling expansive so how about you and I get after this lovely jug of wine?  it’s glass because glass is class.  it’s golden gem colored with a fruity nose a sweet that lingers yet is light….hmn it is chablis… why shabby it ain’t although it rhymes. it fits what I see  it asks me to believe.  mmm and I do and this is how the day flew…it wasn’t very tricky aferall.

 

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yes believe it or not there is patches of plenty in a place that to me seems at first barren.  it takes abouts a couple of coffee cups worth of pace to enision to fruition a cucumber vine .  all my life I learned  that this vine in a season may toss out a good 20 sandwiches worth of hoity-toity-ness  yes the cucumber sandwich as discussed in the p.g. wodehouse Jeeves and Wooster books of a dandy and his manservant living the life.  not always is a rich man rich each and every instant and nor is every rich man the smartest as in brightest crayon in the box… but a lil opportunity can make a big memory.     each rock of this lil valley is a thousand and one crags to contain the niche need for a sandwich salvation of a cucumber vine.  just follow the lines to where opportunity plumbs up.  a simple tour of the store said a loaf of baguette, a line of dijon, sliced cucumbers salted as any strange bird like me might consider correct- with steak seasoning because I’m out for a fabulous repast  and thus allowed to drain before sandwiching so I don’t get my bread all soggy   and   did you  note that jug of wine above mentioned?  mmmm.  what an mm. enough fuel to walk the bachelor road.

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to feel a rich man of another time I think seventy five cents is a cucumber, 2 dolars is a fresh baguette and both salt and mustard another quarter for those.  economy is important and right now three dollors for a delightful day of all I can eat is grand.  as my silver changes hands I think about how rich I remain.  I think of where my lil crag of oportunity is where I can hide from harshity my lil moment needed to live live grown fromwaiting.  let me show you a barrenwaste to you I see full of silver and gold spun with just some time.  just some time.  are you still walking withmme?  you should be as I should be walking lowers my sugars as I use up some of the yummy going in. but its away from view I must be because I feel I need to hide mushroom like in order to grow.  grow a pile of cash needed to live so calling to me the underpass stash of life as I wait out my sentence of poor to have means  walk with me thus somewhat out of town just about an hour shall do just past where people more prosperousdrew imaginary lines for which they trade their gold.  lets find  what is hidden within plain sight. abundance.  empowerment.

as thoughts flow, so does water.  I hae my sandwich of kings now I must have something to consider remaining clean.  I don’t see rivers as this is a creek  a place of forever fish.  I see a lil copse of bushes and a lil  hole  deep enough to ease a day’s thoughts away next to a pil of stones heated in a fire to make my  sit simmer me cares away …not that ht now I don’t want to simmer me away.  eek.   tea too tends to sing to me.  some water might help keep me from raisening away.   I suppose I should say that most fires are better served up from the sun across a stone become metal film wires and glass of a solar cell servicing a simpler hotplate and kettle.  or maybe a lil wheel sunk in a creek spinning its way to my breakfast lunch and dinner.  splash with me though while it’s sorted out splash with me in the stream – while beers or sodas and a few cans of sparkling stay chilled.  think of how a fallen log so wetted in rain streams swiftly to  a march of mushrooms.

from the passing of the old comes delights of the new.  from withing the one thing is food for another.  I really should shut up and make the another tea  as I contemplate something mushroom shaped with a roof.

 

look left look right this is a fine fine walk with the horses.  but look left, look right and you see so many  littl hills and a few bigger ones and plenty enough trees as a screen too.  tell me I can not hide a lil smurfy hut oh about a zillion places in the right places..all I have to do is open my eyes to what I don’t see.

 

so a shoven, solar cell, kettle knife nice nuff blanketing a lighter and something more for fire calcium carbide because the very water becomes fire ..take that rain   I think I can manage a hammer of a rock.  and now to getting still again smarter

http://www.envirotextile.com/

marijuanna as a bag.  not marijuana in the baggie…you just go smoke that… a bag of marijuanna..hemp and I mean canvas because 30 gallons of warm water is a luxuriant shower, a roof a bed a chair.

sit on it versus smoking it.  hemp is a season to grow…how it gets to be a chair is another season of research as I just BARELY found a way of understand plant to woven fiber…. it’s still called go shopping  lol.  shit.

http://www.theweedblog.com/mud-and-hemp-home-do-it-yourself-guide-book/

but still pothead after pothead has this notion that we should move be in motion towards more pot living.  well they can make smoke signals I’d rather sit on it

 

ah, winter with its months of howling wind enough to make you nuts. spring and it’s beginnings again, summer to mushroom hot tub drink wine and eat sandwiches divine til fall has us packing it away again mmm pumpkin pie….hey if you can grow a cucumber you can grow a pumpkin!  and all of this to eat rice so I don’t eat through all my lettuce so it grows this idea I reemerge ready to begin life empowered.  yes run run run away to wait my way to begin living – ug.  all that is ever wrong in my head is that I think I’m just waiting and the very waiti is life too.  even sitting here on my bed waiting to begin waiting is living too.

 

there are some things hidden – and as you see there are smiles too like sipping dreams stashed in…