January 22, 2012

• Chaos Control

  firstly, nice happening today, I sold 2 pictures used to which I made cash or otherwise consideration of value towards. woot.  these two pictures represent the first time I deliberately did something quasi-artistic and in snap a picture portrait of a person …sorta art shhh, that sold. 

   

  the rest of my day was chaos control.  dealing with how to get something anything done but the annoyance of having to get it done in a “right” manner versus …ah, just wing it.  there is no winging digging into 29 songs for one at a flash in unnamed files.  it doesn’t happen. it’s not fast.  this is the fourth outting in which I had to do what is swiftly known as “asshole” work.  why asshole?  because it’s thankless and irritating and doesn’t pay well ala bitter housewife syndrome with teeth…five minutes flat…. I have a headache.. fuck you aspirin.  again, Plus here, I completed the asshole work including doing it all over again with all the new more extra stuff and left with a collated pile of controlled chaos. yau me.  you heard it here first, I’m capable of worthiness and assholery..   I can be a worthy asshole.  now all kidding asiode…ah the joys of puns.

   

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  tomorrow which threatens to snow…par for the course…my time and…challenge… I finally have out to get a test nifty in- stop motion photography take what is it now? 4 times…forget.  wish me luck   interestingly though this artistic chance and the long paragraph above shows an interesting thing.

   

  it doesn’t matter that while I hoped to be artistic and you heard I already am but that’s not what i intended I mean to make videos of higher art.. it occurs to me people paying don’t care they want and want now and if one does what one can well and swiftly, okay not my turn to be ridly scott or spike jonez…but, I get to learn something of first: I can and did acheive saleable art…first time.. I can make simple things as uncommunicated (frustrating) asked for/expected and realize what  i never truly understood about myself and one feeling

   

  how come no one invests/chooses me?  duh you just heard people do and i might be frustrating… don’t rub it in.  but, there is something to be said about avoiding ponderables and asking answerable questions.  not am i any good yes no opinion stuff thank you uou you and you you you  YOU and you for saying so… you know who you are   but hey i have this can we get anywhere with it?  what this? who cares= we have something more solid to ponder. smaller specific not some hooey am i a charming fellow…hopefully..am I well dressed stylish right now…by the way I’m comfortably mismatched with tannish shoes, dress black pants and a sweat suit style grey zip yet pullover thingum…  comfy clash…  well , to see first hand why we must choose to believe in say oh joshy has 3– pages of “fine” poetic offerings?  doully inked diatribes demonstrations lamentations exultation sillinesses tritenesses INQUISITIONS (no one ever expects the Spannish Inquisition..yeah yeah, saw the monte python) caresses *you bet of her fine body) kinkinesses *yes, i’m talking whole chicken too) and lastly seranades.. you know 300 pages of fiddlesticks!  yes i worked on that acronymn too, it requires me first to put forth something manageable and maybe even reasonable- not perhaps always whomp! there it is….or isn’t   I saw this.  interesting lesson to see how more constructively positive negative and within fair and free choice others can contribute or detract help or not like or dislike whats offered YET the magic lesson here isn’t that entirely but to validate myself in the process of offering my own “offerings” hoping or succeeding or failing to gain praise YET more importantly allowing such to happen without twisting anothers arm like a tyrant expecting demanding a result.  i owe a thosand appologies to the universe as per usual but at least i see “” what is meant by a lifetime of feeling cheated by others offerings many have but there is a line when one can and should try to avoid a bit of emotional vampirism.

   

  it’s also nice to see swiftly and easily that I’ll finish my archiving projects but while the artistic contributions can happen i see little hope for them because I frankly can’t as easily deal with the thanklessness of having to sort the mess out first to begin to make something happen for myself or anyone.  the impatience in using what is essentially my effort to another’s gain is not one slap in the face but the second dude where where you- um i was there all along what happened to the complete effort of properly archived materials?  foot tap…dude you need a shirt that says doesn’t play nice with others   smell the thankless ness coming on?  two ways to acheive a common goal where the way  … two different ones… is the important part- um colision course!

   

  so, long as this poor blog is…aw you poor reader..

  tomorrow, garunteed likely to be ucky weather because I felt pinched on my energies today and ended one portion of the day with okay there’s always tomorrow…. heheheh evil chuckle…. stop motion photography in a semi frozen creek bed in the hopefully actually glorious hore-not whore- frost or snow…let us hope together that I have water resistant temperature saving feetwear like the shoes advertised!  video games if i’m lazy or simple one picture video youtube production… have this fancy-ass opensource thingum to cuss you wouldn’t believe how I cuss this computer all day long ooo if it enforced a cuss jar…which it doeshahaha i had to upgrade it…you’d yeah thought ran away from me finish it as you see fit…except YOU,-   okay even you too can play along

   

  tomorrow’s menu because it wasn’t today is:

  Loose Burger Sandwiches, a hearty North-American treat of extra meat browned and drowned in yep a meat broth to make burger become roast succulent sliced strips of roast hunks  of mmmmm topped in a rich sauce of chilied meat cooked to a decidedly urbane offering of simple fare of yep, more meat… are you sensing a very male meal coming?  Sweet potato Fries as they’s just gotta be gotten to. and for some annoying end of month reason my vegetable options are something snap peas maybe rotel’d *dice tomatoes with chili and onion and pine nuts– ooo Chinese-style veggie stir fry vegetable green ness! … I am capable of dessert but I often do not eat it so- my dessert option is blueberry poppyseed fry bread drenching, dripping,exquisitely shiny! fry bread with whipped cream and duh blue berries atop..  gotta use up that almond syrup i bought.

   

   

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